Silence is difficult to achieve at first. When you cut off all external noises (television, cell phone, computer, etc), your mind refuses to stop thinking. I had a chance this week to take two days for silence, or so I thought. My wife is a blue personality, so she is very nurturing and solicitous. She would continue to ask questions (are you ok? is anything wrong?) which could at first be answered by nodding the head. Occasionally she would ask a question beginning with "I know you can't answer, but..." and continue with a non-yes-or-no question. As the non-judgemental observer, I was amused.
I had originally planned to do a prolonged sit a few weeks ago, but a heart attack intervened. So I established that this Thursday and Friday (Mar 16 and 17) would be my time. I let people know that I was going to "unplug" (shut down computer and smart phone) for those days.
The voice of God sounds a lot like me (to me, anyway). That shouldn't be surprising. Haanel gives an example in section 15 of part 23:
15. He said to me, in substance: "I know that all things that 'work out' in business are the result of thought; any fool knows that. Just now, I seem to be short on thoughts and good ideas. But, if this 'All-Mind' teaching is correct, it should be possible for the individual to attain a 'direct connection' with Infinite Mind and in Infinite Mind there must be the possibility of all kinds of good ideas which a man of my courage and experience could put to practical use in the business world, and make a big success thereof. It looks good to me; and I am going to look into it."
Think about it: when the Infinite Mind drops an idea into your mind you hear yourself think it. So, even though it is God's thought, you hear yourself saying it. In your own experience, have you ever had a "hunch"? Or have you ever experienced the feeling of "something told me"? God's thoughts appear out of context with your normal thought. Here is an example when I was arguing with God about a passage in the Bible:
First, the passage about which I was concerned, from the King James:
7 But when ye pray, use not vain repetitions, as the heathen do: for they think that they shall be heard for their much speaking.8 Be not ye therefore like unto them: for your Father knoweth what things ye have need of, before ye ask him.9 After this manner therefore pray ye: Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name.10 Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven.11 Give us this day our daily bread.12 And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.13 And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen. (Matthew 6:7-13)
ME: why would you teach people to ask for their daily bread when you said you already know what they need? And why would you have them ask you not to lead us into temptation when in James 1:3 it says let no man say I'm tempted of God?
GVIMH(God's Voice in my Head): What is the understood subject of the sentence?
GVIMH: What is the understood subject of the sentence?
ME: (Remembering high school grammar) You?
GVIMH: Exactly. Read it that way.
ME: You give us this day our daily bread. <whoop!> You don't lead us into temptation but you deliver us from evil <Yahoo! I get it!> And YOU forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors.
GVIMH: Read the next two verses.
14 For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:15 But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
As you may imagine, I had a good time celebrating that revelation. But, I digress. The point is that although GVIMH sounds like me, it is usually a pattern interrupt - something that springs unbidden.
What I Learned this Time
This was a paradigm shift for me.
Part of my silence was reading Emerson again, as well as Part 23 of Haanel, and Scroll VI from Og. They both reinforced what I already knew, but drove home to me the importance of acknowledging God (Hunch, Something, the Infinite) and meditating on the information. I already know that what you say is a reflection of what you believe and is ultimately what you get. What I didn't know was how easily my old blueprint (Satan, the Enemy of My Soul) can derail me when I converse with my wife (not her fault) and "confess my faults" that I may be healed. I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy. That is the truth of my core. Sometimes I say things -- no, sometimes I HAVE said things-- that don't exactly line up with that.
Since I am loving, I am kind and not easily provoked. I don't demand my own way (am not attached to my opinion), I think no evil (of myself or anyone) and I rejoice in the truth. Here's the truth: Silence can be your weapon in the war for your mind. Someone says something to you and you don't respond immediately. You realize that the Infinite is love and you are one with the Infinite, so you are love. Love bears all things and believes all things and hopes for all things and endures all things. The tricky part is to not retort when someone "hurts your feelings", but remember they are a beautiful creature of God.
See, what nobody has told you yet is that it doesn't always "feel" good to turn the other cheek or walk that extra mile when you are doing it. It only feels good later when you realize you acted as you should have in the moment. You totally accept the moment because the Universe is perfect. Eventually you will like the moment. So,. I learned to master my emotions and ride the wave. When I grow up, I will be the person I intend to be. He is in me now in seed form and that seed has been planted and is producing a harvest.
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